Sunshine again.

Hello Hello. Ok i've like scrolled down and looked to find that my blog entries recently have been a contradiction to its banner up above. Mad Depressing. Omg. So I shall write about something happy!

I AM GOING TO BE STAYING IN THE HILTON FOR THE NEXT 6 NIGHTS! :)
So whoever wants to get a glimpse of the room, better skype me! lol.

Well ok. I don't really know if staying there is going to be a good or bad thing considering that 3/4 of my day will be spent runnin' around in the Hilton finding my precious attendees. And I'll probably be super dead tired by the time I reach the room each night, I'll just collapse on my bed and fall asleep till 5am again. haha.

BUT, I'm just so excited for conference to happen, I cannot wait either. It feels like i'm going for camp at the Hilton. You know the feeling of meetings in the morning, dispersing for activities and then regrouping at night again for dinner and meetings and then you go back to your bunks to sleep and do it all over again! I feel the adrenaline rush just typing about it.

*Try imagining me telling all this to you in a really excited voice. :)* That's how I feel now. haha. okayz. Work time. Till laters! CIAO! :)

My Bestest yet...

Sarah just showed me a video of Super Junior M, which is this Korean boyband mixed with now dudes from mainland China and they sing like Chinese songs.

I think their accent's kinda cute. This korean accent with attempts of correct chinese pronunciation. I think I like people who, like me, ATTEMPT to speak chinese and love the culture. Haha.

Maybe that's why I have this thing for ABCs like Wang Lee Hom and David Tao. I feel faintly related to them for the fact that my chinese accent is just about as bad as theirs. :P

Angsty much.

After much thought, I realised. sigh. I think it's just gotta do with the gender and I'm just being alittle bit too petty. PMS makes you think crazy shit.

Sometimes.

I've been asked many times, "Why Cheryl? Why the heck are you all so sunshine and happy all the time?" To that I give a simple answer saying, its because, I'm content. But that doesn't mean that I don't have the right to feel emotional and sad. Because. I DO.

"But that's soooo not you!" SO WHAT?! I'm afterall human being aren't I?

Its tiring. Its tiring to cheer when you're not the least bit cheery. Its tiring to strike up the conversation all the time. Its tiring to think of the continuous topics to make the conversation last. Scientists have found that in a given group, every 19mins of chatter will end with a pause of silence before someone starts off again. But why do I always have to be that one?

Sometimes, I just want to be the one that listens. The one that smiles and laughs at your days. I'm just tired of telling. So tired of speaking. I want to listen. But all I hear are blank pauses of silence as if that 19 mins have already been used up. Its like a monologue with "ohs and Hahas" as fillers and moments of interaction.

But really, some initiation would just be nice. just SOMETIMES.

Don't get me wrong. Its not that I'm unhappy talking. I'm not angry, its just frustration I need to get out. PMS makes me an idiot, especially when the stomach hurts like a B****.

Another 28 days to my security blanket. I'm not dying to get out. But I'm not dying to stay either. Just this weekend before the mayhem begins....


P.S. I feel like taking away the tagboard. Somehow, comments make me happier. I feel heard.

If only.... you could meet me halfway. :)

Everything turns a blur when time hastens. But when reality hits you hard in the face once again... it seems that the ticking of the clock just slowwwwwwsssssss downnnnnnnnnn...

I need to overcome this 2 weeks of stagnant times before... my whirlwind to home starts again. And this time, its for real. :)

I know you want to smack me for wanting to leave, but... I really do miss Singapore that much la. I can't help it. The grass is wayyyy greener on that side of the world.

As time passes on...

No this is no dead blog. I know, I haven't posted in like 10 days, but i've been pretty bogged down by work (Since conference is about 2 weeks away) and visitations that I just haven't had the time to blog! haha. But since its the last day of the year for me, I figured, its high time I put closure to one of the best years of my life.

2009 has absolutely been one of the best years ever with adventures and memories that will last me a lifetime. Its the year i've learnt, matured and experienced so much that its even difficult to put into words the mix of emotions i've had. Feelings of joy, happiness, love, independence, change, loneliness, comfort, faith. Oh the list goes on and on. But all I can say is, I'll never forget this one.

Poly Peeps
As poly comes to a close and its once again time to move on (although I REALLY don't want to and can't believe 3 years have passed on by..) I know its these people that I'll keep close to my heart for the rest of my life. The awesome times i've had 'chionging' work and staying up all night would all have never been possible with you guys. You guys brighten up my dullest of days with retardedness and fun. You push and encourage me. You stick by me. and We were there for each other. So Famous Five, lets keep our lives intertwined and never ever let it unwind. :)

Best pals

TANISHA MANOCHA, SHAUN LEE & SARAH KHAW. What the heck will my life be without guys luh. What tell me what. I don't have to explain anything, because you all know, where you are in me heart.... :)





Garlique Gang & Churchies

You guys have filled my life with so much colour I can never ever imagine my life without any one of you. Despite distance and time, we never fail to make time for each other. Although all of us lead separate lives now with Poly, uni and army, the bond that we have will never fade. I love every single one of you. And that will never ever change. :)





Family & pals

The pillars of which I get strength and support from each day of my life. 'Ohana' means family, and family means nobody gets left behind. That means, its not only my parents and bro that has become part of this family, its the friends that love us so as well. I know that no matter where I go, I'll have you guys standing right behind me. LOVE LOVE!






Boyfriend

Hehe. I never forget la. Its called, saving the best for the last (* in Sarah's words). This is quite pai seh to write here, but Thanks dear for being there for everything ands fors mes... Its been an amazing year with you and I really couldn't ask for another better addition to my life. After all...

LIFE is a journey, and LOVE is what
makes that journey worthwhile. :)

Hawaii
Living overseas has been something i've always wanted to try. But living in Hawaii for 5 months. Now that's just a pure dream come through. Sure, its been an emotional joyride, but its an experience i'll never ever exchange anything for. Its been 4 months and as of NOW, i'm 1 month and 7 days away from home. But to a bitter sweet ending, i'll never ever forget Hawaii, the islands of paradise. :) And Eunice Lai, I would have never done it without you! :) LOVES!









If you're not on this list, it's not that you're not important in my life. Whatever you've done, I'm truly happy to have you in my life. Its just that my life is filled with too many awesome people, its gonna be IMPOSSIBLE to pour ALL my gratitude out in one post. :)

ANYWAYS,

Its new years day for me! So once again....

HAVE AN AWESOME YEAR AHEAD.
HAPPY NEW YEAR PEEPOS!
You know you mean that much to me in my life! :)